Inspired

So I am going to head into a new path with my bolgs. I am about t start writing my book. I have always been writing, but now I have a plan and a path. So my writing are going to be geared toward my book, not always about EDs, but always about hope, sprit, and recovery.

How do you know what someone else is feeling if they do not let you know? How can you help someone if they will not, or are not able to let you in? Where does insperation come from? You never know where it will come from, even if it is from someone that you do not know.

If you were struck down wioth a life threatning disease what would you do? This question is harder to answer than one would think. The answer is, you do not know until you have been there. Does it mater what type of person you were before this tragedy happened? If you went to the doctor one day and they told you, you have stage three cancer, your chances of living are high, but you are going to struggle. What would you do with this? Would you take it and deal with it and move on, or would you use it as an opportunity. Would it show you that there is so much out there that is more powerful, would you take the opportunity to make a difference in the world?

What would you do if you went to the doctor and they told you that you had stage 4 cancer, there is no stage 5. What would you do, would you fight and fight and fight to make a difference? Its easy to say now what you would do, but who really knows what they would do? Or do they?

I know that for an absolute fact that if this was me that I would use it as a chance to make a difference. I do not have cancer, but I have survived a devestating disease for 23 years, and I have been in recovery for 3...and I will make a difference.

Nobody knows what life is going to hand them. Life can be very hard and trying, but you must ask yourself, what is it that I am going to get out of this life? What inspires you? I am inspired by people that I have never met. There are people out there that are facing thier fate, but all they want to do is change your life. They know that thier life may be coming to an end but they want to be an insperation. I am inspired by the life of others...lives that may be to short, but lives that are not without reason or insperaton.

Is true hapiness possible?

A lot of girls with EDs or in recovery wonder, is this it for me? Am I am ever going to be really happy? Will I ever have a better and different life?

I am here to tell you with absolute certainy, yes it is possible to be happy. however it is not something that just happens over night. You can only achieve true happiness within yourself. It is possible to for other people in your life to make you happy, but true complete happiness has to be happiness with yourself.

There was a time in my life not to long ago that I thought, is this it, is this the way my life is going to be? I did not want to live that way so I worked as hard as I could to change it. And I did. There are days that are better than others, but overall I have true happiness in my life. I work everyday on bettering myself, to achieve more. I am not talking about getting more "things" or material possessions. I work and strive everyday to make my self the best me that I can be. I try to keep all negativity out of my life, I try to always be positive, and I try to live everyday to the fullest, because you never know what the next day is going to bring.

I know that most people with EDs will say its easier said than done, this is very true. But if you take the steps everyday to heal yourself, work on recovery, and grow as a person, the outcome is an amazing feeling.

Having gone thru an ED for the past 23 years was very hard!!! I never thought that I would be where I am now. I spent so much of my life miserable and sad!!! I do not ever want to go back there, because I know how far I have come and how good it feels to be where I am now.

I am a firm believer in everything happens for a reason. Having gone thru this is what has made me who I am today. What I have gone thru has helped me find myself. The person that Have found, I can honestly say...I really like!!!

If you are reading this and you have an ED remember that it is possible to walk the road to recovery, it is hard, and at times seems impossible. You will never better your self and get ED out of your life until you make a concous decision that you are ready, willing, and able to move on.

Life is a funny thing. Its a long road filled with twist and turns and you will never know where it will take you. Not many people end up where they think they will, but that is ok. You have to make the best of whats in front of you, because only you can can decide what path you take. Only you can make yourself happy, and only you can give you the life that you want!!! (Emotionally and spiritually)