Honesty?

Tonight I thought a lot about being honest. How honest am I to myself? How honest am I about myself to others? The answer to that is simple....I am usually so brutally honest that most people don't "get it".

How honest are you to yourself about your ED? Do you pretend that you and everything is ok? Do you look at others and yourself with the soal intention of making sure that others really do know your pain?

So many people in today's society will judge on the spot. Many of us that have EDs or have struggled with them in the past always have that piece in our head that tells us that even if we are "doing better" that it is not good enough. We want everyone to think that life is great..even when it is not.

Honesty is the best policy. Why are women told that they should keep things to them selves? Why do most people play games? Why do we lie to ourselves? Why is so hard for us as women to just put our feelings out there?

Our insecurities come from everywhere. But what is it that makes us so insecure and therefor scared to be honest? What do we have to loose? Are we worried that people wont accept us because oft their preconceived notions?

Well my thought on all of this is be blunt, be honest to yourself and the people around you. Honesty and self acceptance go hand and in hand. If you are not accepted for who you are, then why would you want that false sense of acceptance?

I always say that you have to find yourself before someone finds you. Be honest with yourself and be honest with the Pele around you. As women with EDs it is hard for us to accept someones honesty, its hard for us to believe the honesty, especially when it makes us feel good about ourselves. I spent many years not believing in myself. But now I do, and I am honest about myself and my feelings of myself, and to others. Icahn honestly say that I like myself and I am proud of myself. That is a great feeling. Time is precious and you never know what the next day is going to bring. Everyday live your life, really live,,,because you never want regrets and you never want to say what if.