Will ED let you find your place in the world?

All of us who are suffers of ED probably have always wondered...will I find my place in life? Am I going to be stuck in this giant revolving door that is life with ED.

Will I always feel so terribly alone? Is ED going to be my best friend forever, or can I break ties with the thing, this entity that is breaking my soal? Will I be stuck my whole life with this best friend from hell, will I ever have a best friend that is a real friend, someone that I can actually lean on in a time of need, a friend that is not trying to kill me.

When we honestly ask which persons in our lives mean the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving much advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a gentle tender hand. The friend that can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not-knowing, not-curing, not-healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness...makes it clear that whatever happens in the external world, being present to each other is what really matters.

If those reading this feel as I have most of my life, you feel that you will never find your place. How can you when you are spending all your energy worrying and obsessing about ED. You wake up one day and you are 30 years old and you are still trying to find yourself and your place in life.

I am here to tell you that we all have a place in life and it is not with ED. You have to reach deep into your soal in into yourself to break free. In order to find your place in life you have to show ED that his place is not in your life. Life is a journey and thru this journey we find ourselves and our place. the sad and unfortunate thing is, when we have ED in our life that journey is all about ED. When you are able to find your place in life it is a feeling like no other. Its a feeling that you never thought was possible. When you find yourself and your place in life you are starting a new journey.

We are all put here for something, I have a feeling that we were not put here to be someone that was beat by an eating disorder. However starting on the journey to recover will help you find what you are here for. All of our lives have meaning, it may not seem like it because ED tries to suck all of that meaning out of our lives. Don't let him take away your meaning.